reminiscence.

Dont.


I still remember how we got together.
You held out your hand.. and i.. held it tight.

It was the happiest day of my life.
I was happy to have you boy.. i really am.

Remember you always told me not to sleep with wet hair.
Then you'll dry my hair for me..
Remember i told you that if we quarrel, must tickle one another..
But that didn really worked. Cause i'll get angrier!
Remember i told you that if we quarrel.. must baobao.
It really works.. It does.. really. =(

Remember i'll always take videos of You..
The last video.. you said i bo liao.. and i said its for Memories..
Its true Boy.. its true.. =(

Remember how you'll always do the cooking, and i'll wash the dishes..
Remember i'll always pack your clothes neatly for you..
Remember how i'll always hang your towel for you..
Remember i'll sweep the floor for you.. =(

Remember i fell down on both knees at orchard.
And you said i was proposing to you.. zz.
That day i fell down again on both knees at east coast, you didn fucking care. ='(

Remember i'd always wear your bigbig tshirt to sleep.. No matter what.
Remember you had a rule, must face you when sleeping.. Must baobao when sleeping.
Remember how you always cook my favourite crabmeat and hotdog..
Remember me, your good girl.. always help you buy shampoo and body foam, newspaper, jasmine flowers, etc etc.

I wanna be your good girl forever. ='(((

Remember how you always told me not to breathe out thru' my nose when lala-ing..
And i stopped.
Remember you always said my eyeliner so thick.
Remember you told me not to wear my gold heels cause too high.. so i didn.

Remember you bought me that necklace i wanted.
Remember i bought you that purple tee and that blazer.
Remember the wonderful sweet16 you planned for me.
Remember i pei you go for interview, and you got the job.
Remember you said im your lucky star.. =(



Remember you said im your Everything.. and you wouldnt Leave Me.


i remember. ='(

FOR YOU.

FOR YOU......


for you, i lala-ed lesser. and stopped.
for you, i lalala-ed lesser.
for you, i dont pon.
for you, i lessen my usage of vulgarities.
for you, i study hard..

and you said "My good gal.. you're always my good gal."



You're my motivation, boy.
You're the reason im staying on..
You're the only love that i need.

"Happiness is when i found You.."



dont let me crumble to pieces please. ='(

please?

stupid.

i dont wanna stay at home.


i wanna stay out. i want my friends to pei me.
so that at least i know there's still someone there.
hais. stupid girl.

everyone's saying he's not worth it. he's not a good guy.
but i've fallen too deeply. i cant let go.
i love him more than anything, anyone. more than myself.
giving up on him, might as well give up on myself. hais.

looking at our photos and videos, i cant help but to cry.
my heart aches to see how happy we were in the past.
but now, you dont care anymore.
we're still together. but everything just doesnt seem right.
you dont seem to care how upset i am.
you dont fucking care.

i've not eaten a proper meal since friday.
i've totally forgotten about eating and drinking.
somehow i dont feel hungry. i only feel numb. i cant think straight.
i just cant help thinking about you, about us.
i can only feel the pain and the misery.

hais. i dont fuckin wanna stay on.
thanks guys for the advice and stuff.
but.. your friend aitien is stupid.
and she fucking hates herself for everything.
but no matter what happens, i'll never forget the moments spent.
boy, i love you forever.
i always am. i always will.
cause you're the only love i need.
but... it just hurts so badly...

please.. why cant you give me one last strength to stay on? ='(



GONE.

BITCH.

AGAIN AND AGAIN..



again and fucking again things got kept from me.
knn ask you so many times go partyworld say dont want or what.
then suddenly ask her go?! want go with her dont want go with me la!
PCB! then why must hide from me?!
i said before just let me know. dont fucking hide it from me.
BUT AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!!

knnbpcb. nobody really cares anyway.
i might as well fucking fuck off from this world and let you two happily ever after.



FUCK THIS SHIT LA HOR

zz. bored.

shalala~


im like fucking bored can. argggh.
met laogong at cwp just now. that stupid bitch was late for half an hour.
i was bloody angry lo. arggh. bitchy benethon. >:(((

zz. went up to lvl5 find collinLLL, joan, zhongli.
then went to pasta for dinner. very full. zz
then nowhere else already. bitch sent me home.
but i was feeling bitchy too cause it was still early (9+pm nia!) and i was fucking bored.

IM STILL BORED. >:((((((((((( !!!



i hate benethon the bitch! x]

zz.

HIIII.


im at my sis' place right now. cookie & sushi are sleeping. ahaha. they're the chihuahuas. hmmm. cabbed home after school yesterday. dozed off. got woken up at 4+. lol. crap. bathed. called laogong. he's frikin sleeping like a log. as always. ZZ. =.=

then changed and dolled up. eh. 7+ then went to cwp. ahaha. met laogong. walkwalk. bought lens solution. and cream puffs. yummy cream puffs. then laogong sent me to sis' place and he went to meet boy they all.

dont know later wanna go where. sian.
anyway, i love my benben loadsa. xDD



SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST SOOOO WEIRD.

CHIHUAHUA! :D

HEYO! :D


THURSDAY
went to find laogong in the morning. he was at kopitiam with lawlen, ahboy and one guy. then i went up first cause stomach pain pain. but his bedroom's door locked. so went out to find him. at the lift there about to go in heard someone calling my name. looked up. LAOGONG! xDD

hahaha. so lame so lame. im always blogging bo liao stuff. zz. ate corn. ahaha. slept. 5+ woke up went downstairs. both clinics closed. SIAN. then went back. 6.30 went down to Royal Clinic. hmm. took med and mc lo. doc said my stomach abit messed up. LOL. =.=

screwed up bah. zz. went to lot1 after that packed kfc home. zz. anyway jie might be buying chihuahua. WHITE DE. SUUUPER CUUUUTEEE CAN!!! 3months old only. 200bucks nia. ahaha. hmmm.........


I WANT A WHITE CHIHUAHUA TOO. =(


if not, maltese or bunny also can. xD